swallow your blood | Channeled Message from the Mórrígan

What is missing in your picture? Close your eyes and see. You cannot release unmet needs. Perhaps you will always be searching for it, and maybe that's the way you become what you will be. This is only possible for those who keep going, who follow their feet and go into the cave.

Cards:

Observation + Growth + Initiation

Displacement + Lack + King of Trees

Direction + The Stone + The Fool

(Urban Crow Oracle; The Morrigan Oracle; Witch Sister Tarot)

Numbing agents and pencils on your tongue

Giving up and giving in

Are you confident, are you sure?

Rivers and fords I stand

Come with me

Take my hand

I will write with yours

Who needs the cards on the table with a goddess in your mind? Who cares for pretty pictures when the real thing crawls up and through your spine?

(this next part was very scribbly, so I'm not 100% sure if this is exactly what it says, but I tried my best lol)

Earthly shapes do not convince a shape seer to see any different.

Tear through illusions and feel your fear. Cry and cry and cry your tears. Write a poem and scream about it.

It was not your fault. Do you hear me? Do you see me?

Burn you at the stake, nail you to a cross. They will try and try again. But my children always rise. My essence animates the dead.

What about your body tells you that it's yours? What is in your name which identifies you? Get closer to me. Become a new thing.

Give in and give it up. It is not a race. Let them win if that is how they have to see the situation. I am not on their side. I never was.

Swallow your blood and keep it where it belongs. Digest the cow and all her sacred milk. Do you think that I wouldn't find you? It just took longer for you to see me, to understand this time. Do not listen to a thing they tell you about who or what you are. You were marked as mine from the beginning.

I require this much of you. Yes, it is a lot. But you have muscle, you've got bone and your blood remains tact-ly inside your veins.

Keep your eyes forward and in focus. Do not let another's sight steer your ship. Hear with your own ears, speak with your own tongue.